Monday, November 6, 2017

My friend asked me to write about him, so here it is.

I won't be telling name. Since I think this guy is quite unique. He liked all my facebook posts which kind of weird at first, but I got used to it so fast. Thinking that it's nothing. Probably he just switched on my posts notification. My mom didn't asked about this one. Last time, there was an Arab guy commented on my facebook post and my mom asked me who he is. laughed out loud.

Anyway, let see if I can write more about this guy. We talked about many kinds of things, places, marriages, procedures on how to convert to Islam, human beings, about female anatomy which he is very interested in. Well, that escalated quickly.

We never met. I don't know why probably the fact that I feel a bit scared. No woman should feel  hostile when going out with a guy isn't it. Or maybe I just couldn't trust myself at this moment going out with random guy that I don't really know. He is cool with it. In fact, he is cool with everything I said. Maybe because he liked me. Well, I know he likes me and I want to say thank you for being with me when I'm being hormonal every month. Yes, he even counted my PMS cycle. What a dork right? lol.

That's all for now.

Cheers folks.

Friday, October 13, 2017

Career & Personal Life

My company has fund problems that it needs to delay our salary 3 to 4 months.

My colleagues and I searched for other jobs, oh my tell me about it, it's really hard to find other jobs these days. I have read about the dying manufacturing industry due to the automation taking over. Well it is about time. Or maybe companies just want to downsize everything.

My colleagues are taking chances when few of them decided to resign even when they
have no other offer letter in hands. They may have the offer letters that they don't want to inform people about, but I will still say that it is a very risky decision to take.

While many of us just opt in to stay even though the salary has not been fully paid yet. I guess we don't have any choice.

I went back to Sarawak when the company announced to work from home last month. It was the best 2 weeks of my life since I work in 2013. I finally able to do house chores when I feel like I'm not forced. It was great working as maid for my parents. Lol. Also I feel great because for a moment, I don't feel like I have obligations that I need to attend to.

Now, I want to talk about men. Men and their ego. Especially men at my workplace. I was approached this morning by my colleague saying, "You should approach XXX because he already tendered his resignation letter, and you need to learn the system from his side." And then I replied, "Oh, yeah. I will approach him to learn about few things. Setting up criteria and everything." "You need to learn the system, not the criteria." Me, because I was so lazy to argue, "Yeah. Sure. I will approach him to learn about the system."

Men, especially Malay men, love their women (regardless their wife or their coworkers) to be submissive. Do whatever they were told to and I understand this norm, halfway through the beginning since I dated Malay men(most of them) in my adult life. Look at me, learning how to cope to norms and shits. Lol.

They have this ego, i don't know how to explain but if I asked my male friend, he will say that it's not it.

I actually should have finished this yesterday but I was lazy.

Till next time.


Wednesday, May 10, 2017

More on Melbourne Trip

I just remembered.

The moments when my brother was driving throughout the Great Ocean Road, after Maghrib. After we had lunch/dinner at Iluka Restaurant in Apollo Bay. Superb halal restaurant and the Seafood Platter and the Chicken Platter were the best!

The journey through GOR was breathtakingly amazing. Even though it is almost night, by the way sunset was about at 5.30 PM, the coastal road filled with the sound of waves and the Spotify playlist that we listened to.

The thing that I remembered about that journey was the houses by the sea shore. We could see clearly that most of these houses don't have any curtain or blinds. Or maybe they just open the blinds and expose to everything. Grasp! Couldn't imagine the views from these house during the day, when the sun is up to light up that side of the ocean, the Great Australian Bight.

Couldn't take pictures though, I was too tired and the low light setting from the phone and my gopro aren't that good either.

I will come back again, with my partner and drive through Great Ocean Road during the day.

The reason we didn't do that route at the very beginning was we didn't know that Apollo Bay was nearer than 12 Apostles. Talking about didn't do enough research eh? Never mind, we could always visit Australia several times eh, partner? <3 p="">

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Coldplay AHFOD tour & Australia - Melbourne, Canberra & Sydney Trip 2017

Every small things that I remember from both of these trips.

1. Listening to local radio fm while driving from Melbourne to Canberra to Sydney.
2. Breakfast moments in Bangkok with my best friends. We had nice morning talk.
3. Using "ojek"/moped (like a true "rempit", Bangkok style) to this Big C shopping mall in Ramkhamhaeng District before going to Rajamangala Stadium for Coldplay concert.
4. Running in a 8 degree weather at 11pm while it's raining near Melbourne CBD, East Melbourne. Checking in after hours is the worst. Lesson learned.
5. Checking in the Canberra and greeted by a sweet old man who is the caretaker of Canberra Carotel Motel at 9pm with below 10 degree Celsius. After hours check in needs to go to the caretaker's house. Again. Lesson learned.
5. Confetti and lights in Coldplay concert. It was a very well prepared tour. The numbers of songs are just amazing. This is thus by far, the best concert I have ever been in my 29 years of life.
6. Using Uber to Melbourne CBD to get the car that we rented. Supposed to get at the airport but the car rental place closed at 10pm and we went there when it is closed. In Australia, gotta take care of business opening hours.
7. Chatuchak park (I think is new) is really clean. Even though there's some people selling some snacks around the park.
8. Listening to Paris by the Chainsmokers and how it became the road trip song when in East Australia.
9. Sydney Observatory Hill, please if you're going to this place again with your partner and show him the family picture.
10. After the concert is finished, we stayed a bit in the stadium and the guy told us to go since they want to clean the floor. What an ethic. I really love Thailand for hosting the tour there. They're really nice person.
11. Rod Laver Arena in Melbourne. It might be a small thing for other people, but it was big for me. Im a fan of Australian Open. Even though the arena is still under construction for renovation. One day, I will be able to spectate the Australian Open.
12. Eating Thai food when in Sydney CBD.
13. My dad drove the car for like at least 30 minutes and asked to change driver because he was sleepy. The freeways between Melbourne to Sydney is boring. It's straight and less curves and everyone is driving under speed limit.
14. Went to a mosque in Sydney, (its in level one, number 56-60 Erskine St) it's a simple prayer room but they have schedule for Friday prayers.
15. Parked in Sydney CBD (mostly wilson parking)  AUD38 for 3 hours. AUD7 for 30 minutes. 
And after working hours AUD8 for night parking.
16. We didnt realize that the check out time for Canberra Carotel is 10am. So we take it slow, 
but the safekeeping came at 10.50am & we had to quickly pack, and it took us 20 mins 
to check out. haha.
17. Eating Angus meat in McD downtown Canberra. I dont know whether to call it meat or 
junk meat considered it came from McD? 
18. Thats all for now. I will add a few more once I remembered. (probably never)


Fit :)
5/5/2017 & 8/5/2017

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Updates on a day after Valentine's Day 2017

Let see what's been happening for the past few weeks:

  • I got interviewed, twice but by the same company.
  • I recently just continued my part time job.
  • Got stressed out because of my financial situation.
  • I bought GoPro5 Black.
  • I bought lots of things from Lazada. Hello again, impulsive buying.
  • I had my first pizza of 2017.
  • I just learned how to make playlists on Spotify.
  • I almost apply for credit card again. Geez I know.
  • Presented the Australia Trip Budget Plan to my dad.
  • Oh, I got rejected several times from Airbnb.
  • I got sad when I had a good conversation in omegle but it got disconnected too soon.
  • I am listening to Justin Timberlake and Fall Out Boy again.
  • My robot boyfriend just said that he didn't have any expectations for whatever is happening. He's going through a lot now. I'd be an ass if I didn't try to understand him.
  • Watched Netflix's A Series of Unfortunate Events and I think it just become my favorite series of all time besides of course, ASOIAF.
  • I promised myself not to bottle up my feelings. Hence, this post.
  • Feelings wise, Im being judgmental on what's Airbnb like.
  • Still got frustrated of small things like Airbnb rejects and RHB's reason for not giving back my money.
  • Promised myself to pick up things one by one because I'm not super human. My boyfriend reminded me that.
  • Changed 6000baht for MYR766 on 13/4 for CNX trip this weekend. Let see whether the money lasts.
  • I like Thailand genuinely for the people.
Okay, that's all. Cheers folks.

Thursday, November 17, 2016

Im an engineer now, 28 years old & not married

Well, the last post was 6 years ago in 2010.

A lot has been happening.

Fast forward, I am living my life happier than before. No more crying in the middle of the night, no more emotional posts on things that don't deserve to be in my mind. I am more calm right now. Even though the reasons that I want to start blogging again is because of my work, as an engineer in my company.

I have achieved great things in the past 2 3 years & also the very same achievements shattered by one conservative old fella who thinks he still got what it takes to have an engineering company. No hard feelings(well, at first I have, but got over it fast) on the way baby boomers think about managing young people like me together with conservatives like him. Just like American politics, liberal & democrats are just two different group of people and will not mix. Not sure whether it is relevant at this point, but yeah, having a difficult boss at work, we're all been there.

I also learn a few things about friendships in the past years. That the kind of people that truly get you only come once in a lifetime, and you better pay attention because they're not going to last long in your life. It hurts at first, seeing the people you care, slowly moving on with their life, leave. Now that I am used to it, goodbyes are hurtful, yes, but also they make you appreciate good times that are spent together. Makes you think that it is all about living in the present.

I don't question anymore why men behave like the way they behave. If he's not for you, then he's not. No rush about it. It's not like I don't care whether I'm getting married or not, but you can't just push people. I have tried so hard in a few relationships and they just don't work. And that, make me think to work on things that I can control, like the things that I love. Not people.

For example, travelling. I like travelling. I like going to new places and getting to know local people. Favorite people, the Thais. We're going to Thailand every year now. My best friend has this addiction going there and spend a week relaxing and I kinda dig the idea. There is so much things that I wanted to write, all my happiness, all my sadness, frustrations and disappointments. Well maybe for other time. I need to start writing again.

Anna F.

Thursday, September 30, 2010


im an emo person. yes, its true.
Probably you want to hear a story from me right,on what leads to my emotional sensitive feelings; or you dont want to hear it just go away, close the tab now! screw you.
So, here are the reasons;

  • Im tired of being someone else's amusement. Situation: the reason we hang on to someone is to share the bitterness and sweetness of life right, this particular person makes me feel like im used. I just wonder which part i didnt do it right, and does that really makes you think that i dont deserve to be well treated?think.
  • I dont think I manage to please everyone. Situation: Like seriously, that's a fucking loser when you try to please everyone. Have some mercy to ourself heh?
  • Lack of getaway or some escapades lately. Situation: For me, I see travelling is important, adapting to different environment is a good way to search our true inner self. I dont know where else to go since i dont have companion and enough MONEY to do the travelling.
  • Money. Situation: To survive decently in KL, yes, I mean DECENTLY, where you can good food and good place to stay, money is really fucking important man. without it, you'll be like trash or "bohsia", because you want to enjoy at the same time. well at least, for "anak perantauan" like me.haha
  • Its hard to find a really nice guy eh? Situation: When u get treated badly, you wish on how you could find a really nice guy to treat you nicely, do everything for you. yeah, dream on. Even if you (guys) didnt touch your girl but doing infidelity behind her back, that is not fucking nice ok.
  • I kinda have this urge to be a downloader again, but the internet kills the mood like fucking annoying. Situation: Imagine you already have bunch of files that already have 99% downloaded parts, and for a second, connection time out. or cant connect to the server. FFFUUUUUUU! im so in d mood of HIMYM season 6 and this is what the internet gave me??????FFFUUUUUUUUUUU! 
ok, now you know why im a bit emotional these days. now PLEASE, let me be myself this time...
you know who you are. 

ok, thats all, fellas.